The fight that changed the future

[Delivered 1:23 am] I just feel like this is exactly what I was talking about the other night when I say I try to express things to u but it just starts an argument. I completely understand what u just said and all of that I understand 100% that I fucked up there and I’m sorry but you have to understand that you are a super hard person to read and there’s nothing wrong with that but I can never tell if your sad mad or whatever. All I’m asking is that you somewhat try to understand my point of view that I love you and care about u so much I just want to know like at least a little bit what’s going on with u and I can like respond from there. I always try to put myself in ur shoes when you express something like that to me to try to see where you’re coming from and I just feel like u don’t really try to understand my point of view sometimes

Read 1:27 am

[Delivered 1:34 am] I’m sorry- like I know I can’t keep blaming these fights on my emotions but like it really is it cause you know how much I love talking to you and laughing with you but that other side of me that I’ve been trying to control like hits sometimes and I’m sorry. But when I’m in those moods I don’t like to talk about them I like to talk about them the next day or whatever. And trust me I know like you want to help me but someone trying to push me to talk while upset DOESNT help at all so thank you but when I repeatedly say I don’t wanna talk I don’t. And yes I’m very sorry I will try to be more considerate towards your feelings but ngl sometimes your hard to read to because it sounds/ feels like in my point of view that you hid ur feelings to make me feel better or not to stress me out which is sounds like good but deep down it hurts cause I feel like you don’t trust me and like that’s why I got so defensive when we talked the other night and last night. So in conclusion, I’m really sorry and I honest don’t tend to make you upset the way I do and I fucking hate that you get upset by me a lot but like you see how I am with other people and see me not get that mad with my best friends but whatever I’m really sorry

Incoming call 3:03 am

Call ended 5:38 am

Doesn’t always end with I love you to.